Growing Pains. (Boring Health Stuff that Might Help Someone)

    This is from a Facebook Post a couple weeks ago. It helped some people. So I am posting it here: I am autistic. I also have an autonomic nervous system condition. I didn’t know these two facts until I was over the age of 40. I spent decades in search of answers. For…

“It’s Okay to Be Afraid” Notes to Self in the Year of COVID-19

March 31, 2020, Day 22 of ‘shelter in place.’ During these times of the COVID-19 global pandemic, it is reasonable to assume that most individuals will experience some level of fear. Whether the fear is a result of self- or family-preservation, woes of the world, concerns over medical conditions or supplies, a neurological condition, mood…

We cannot definitely say someone is not infected: COVID-19 Nightmares

“We don’t have a test that can definitely say someone is not infected,” said Dr. John Swartzberg, a specialist in infectious disease and clinical professor emeritus at UC Berkeley’s School of Public Health. (Source) I am listening to my neighbor who is standing outdoors below, outside my upstairs bedroom window, coughing his lungs out. I…

The Brain! The Brain!

  I have been housebound since March 9th, midday. The year is 2020. And there is a pandemic. I have had fear of a coming pandemic since I was four years of age; it was then that I realized what rabies was and what it did. Poor doggies. Since then, several decades have past, and…

From the Inside Out: An Autistic Shutdown

 From the Inside Out: An Autistic Shutdown Autistics have shutdowns. It’s part of life. There are multiple root causes for a shutdown, including the result of sensory overload, physical and mental exhaustion, unexpected news, anxiety about an upcoming event, and upheaval in our schedule. Sometimes it comes in combination; other times it comes down to…

A Visual Representation of My Anxiety: Aspergers (Autism)

MY DANCING STAIRCASE I am autistic (Asperger’s Syndrome). And I have generalized anxiety disorder. Most autistics do, if not all. It’s a byproduct of our very active thought processes and ability to often think in pictures, so that everything, in a sense, becomes very much alive and real. My anxiety is seen and felt in…

The Canoe Factor

The last time I was upset with my boyfriend David, I bought a canoe. Here’s a bit of what the timeline looked like: Surfed Internet as source of self-soothing, aka stimming. Craigslist further assists in stimming pursuit. (a public forum with job openings, miscellaneous stuff for sale, discussion forums, etc.) Found photo of awesome canoe—in…